Lessonoflife

Note to self : Be carefull.

lessonoflife — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 21:41:58 +0000

I don’t even know why I’m here anymore. Real life is outside waiting for me to take on great new challenges. However, it seems I keep returning here every once in a while, usually in a key moment in my life.

So I’ll just get to the point, since long posts aren’t my thing.

Updates : I’m lonely… Or at least it’s a false impression that I have. There were people trying to prove me wrong to me lately, but most turned out to be trouble makers and we ended up fighting and saying things to each other that we probably shouldn’t have. However, thou gives me great hope to me, beautifull fairy ! It’s thy words that heals my wounds, it’s your promises of love and devotion that spreads hope in my soul. I thought I knew you..

However I learn something new about you every day. You‘re silent…at times at least. I now understand where you come from and why you’re doing this. I just hope I won’t need to learn from my own mistakes…again ! As there won’t be anyone else there to rise up to your expectations, let alone replace you, because…You’re Special ! Special to me… And I want you just the way YOU ARE !

I just hope this isn’t a dream, and if it is let’s hope I never wake up.

The meaning of life

lessonoflife — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 15:51:03 +0000

I remember once, when I was very young,
I asked about the meaning of life.
And my teachers just smiled, and told me “Son,
One day you’ll grow up and you’ll have a wife.”
And I asked all my friends, but they didn’t care,
They went outside and played while they could.
So I sat by myself and wondered and thought,
And I wondered if this life would ever be understood.

And once I knew a girl, and she was very sad,
She said her life was a wreck and she was very alone.
So I sat with her a while and I offered her my hand,
And she cried and she asked me to never let go.
But I stood after a while, and I kissed her goodbye,
Because she was strong enough to be on her own.
And I told just before I walked away,
“You don’t have to be scared, you’re no longer alone.”

I went to a church, and I listened a while,
To see if God would save a man like me.
But I stood at the alter, and I spoke all the words,
But when I left that night there was no change to see.
No mortal man will save my soul,
Because if I get into heaven, it’ll be on my own.
They say I’ll reap all the seeds that I sew,
And maybe they’re wrong, but it’s too soon to know.

I loved and laughed and I’ve cried a whole lot,
And maybe I’m sentimental or just too naive.
But I’ve seen a whole lot, and I think that we
One day will laugh, and all men will be free.
But until that day, I’ll just keep praying,
To God, or to men, or who’s ever listening.
And I think, that one day, we can live in harmony,
We’ll dance, we’ll hold hands, be merry and sing.

I remember long ago, when I was very young,
I asked about the meaning of life.
And my teacher’s just smiled and told me “Son,
Someday you’ll grow up and you’ll have a wife.”
But now I look back and truly I know:
Such a question is silly, because we never will know.
And I’ll laugh with my friends until it’s my time to go.
So people may cry, but tides will still turn and the wind will still blow.

And know that one day, we all will die.
And I’m a bit scared, to tell you the truth.
But a new day will come, and new day will go,
And tomorrow will led by tomorrow’s youth.
And when I die, I hope they carve on the tombstone,
“Such a happy man, the world never has known.”
Because all my friends to me have shown:
We don’t need to be scared, we’re no longer alone.

Lesson-of-the-day : “NEVER SAY NEVER !” I know it might sounds silly, but trust me ! It works !

What will it come to now ?

lessonoflife — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 21:45:43 +0000

Right, a glass of whisky, an empty stomach and I’m back to the blackboard again… Let’s see… What’s new ?

I’m still the same, I hope, but my aspirations have changed, I dream of different things now. There comes a moment like this when you just have to open your eyes and realise something which you might have ignored untill then, something of apparently no importance, but proves vital in your journey through life. I could say I’m passing through such a moment right now. I’m starting to realise what’s really important in life, and I’m beginning to feel like everything I’ve done so far has served me for nothing. And I would trade it all in just a blink of an eye to have just a glimpse at what it means to be happy. I know what I want, but the problem is : how to get there ? When I look back now I wish I could have changed all of the choices I made. And by doing this, I believe things would have been the way I want them to be. Ofcourse I know that’s not true, but please don’t rob me of this thought, of this false truth, for it gives me hope…

It would be against the “rules” to just type everything here so everyone can read it, so I’m just gonna use some good ol’ quotes !

I would make the trip again, if I only knew she would be waiting for me there……..

Have I still got feelings for you ? Do I love you ? Do I hate you ? Do I miss you ? I’ll tell you in another life, when we are both cats.

Lesson of the day : Do only what you think is right, never restrain yourself from doing something just because someone else said so, because you’re bound to regret it sooner or later. Whatever you do, listen to your instincts.

Feeling how the alcohol is slowly starting to get the hold of me, I must say goodbye and I must take my leave now, dear friend who hopefully enjoyed reading my post and maybe learned from it. If not, don’t worry, let’s hope I’ll still be around to teach you more.

Joanne and Becker

lessonoflife — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 19:38:48 +0000

Joanne and Becker have been living together for quite a while.

Joanne – ready to go to work, as usually long before Becker wakes up.

Becker – Heard her waking up, but as usually, he just turned his back to get away from the sunrays reflected on the window. First thing he’s been thinking each morning : “Don’t wake me up just to see how you say goodbye “.

Joanne – Before exiting the door, goes back into the room and whispers to Becker’s ear : “I’m leaving… And you will never see me again, ever…”

Becker – Much too sleepy to realise what had happened, grabs the pillow and throws it at Joanne, shouting at her to close the door.

>>Two hours later, he goes to the bathroom to wash his face<<

On the mirror there’s a note : ” I told you that one day you’d lose me forever.”

Little does Becker know, that in that morning, there’s nothing that Joanne would have loved more than to stay home.

>>Several days after she left<<

Becker’s thoughts, the same predictable thoughts which Joanne learned to live with : ” It seems they didn’t last more than a song. She had disappeared just like the dirty towels in hotel rooms do, and clean ones fill their place. She’s gone…maybe before the song was over and she still is leaving…in slow motion…

Lesson-of-the-day : CLOSED !

Cheap philosophy

lessonoflife — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 20:36:46 +0000

When I realised what my feelings are for you, I thought I want to bind myself to everything that you own / like / love / do / think, so on and so forth. In short, I thought I wanted our worlds to merge. Little did I know at that time, what impact would it have upon the two of us. It took me quite some time to realise that I don’t need to join your world, and neither, do you…

So what I’m asking is : Let’s make our own world, baby !

Lesson-of-the-day :

You shouldn’t judge facts without giving it a deep thought before, and you shouldn’t create unfounded assumptions, because it might ruin everything for you. Whatever you hear, whatever you see, don’t put heart into it because I might get you down. The most important thing is learning not to care about all this crap, and to keep going without letting it get to you. If you succeed, tell me how. Well that’s about it, short post, but I’m tired . Take care !

The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer. ~Edward R. Murrow

Just another random post

lessonoflife — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 19:35:10 +0000

Hello ! I just thought I might post something, since I had a not-so-busy schedule today. Just wanted to let everybody know about two things :

1. I just bought a digital guitar processor from Digitech : the RP255 model. It’s really great and I plan to review it next week, so stay tuned. Also, I will be uploading some audio bits of me playing through it, just to give you an ideea of what it sounds like.

2. From now on, I plan to add a ” Lesson-of-the-day ” paragraph at the end of each post starting today ! Enjoy !

Lesson-of-the-day 26 September 2009 :

Today, I found out what a big mistake it can be to plan ahead certain things, especially when it involves other persons, because, in the end you’re bound to fail, as it takes only a small random event to trigger, and your entire chain of events bites the dust. From now on, I’m gonna do everything on the fly. No more planning ahead, no more nothing… I hope sharing this helps !

Things I might never do / say

lessonoflife — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 11:15:29 +0000

In the past month I’ve been thinking abouth death ! “Geez ! Another stupid Emo ! ” You might think.

But I’ve really gave it a thought and considered that there are a lot of things I might never say, many things I might not do, because I might die. Every minute there is a chance that something might happen and I might die. Knowing this I decided to write this. I’m not sure about what this is supposed to be either, but consider it a Preview to all those things.

If you would tell me that tommorow I’m gonna die I would probably go to my parents and tell them that I love them. Next I would probably apologise to everyone I’ve argued with; but there are also a few things I really wanted to say but never had the guts to do, allways postponing them.

My Dearest miss $(!#@… I will not mention your name here because there is no reason to do it and I’m also sure that you’ve figured out it’s you I’m writing about. I had a dream about you last night. It was about a trip I was planning and I was saying goodbye to everyone, including you. Well, when it was time to say our farewells, it felt like I was leaving my past behind, and I want to hug it out with you, like I did in the dream ! I only wish I’d find a way to do this, without making you feel uncomfortable… I sincerely believe that I can let go of all that which I kept inside me, all the love, emotion and everything that goes with it, all in just one hug ! I also want to admit that I have been selfish and that I haven’t treated my friends right. It’s like, when I’m outside I feel like treating everybody bad and making fun of myself, however as soon as I get back home I end up depressed, listening to music and not being able to sleep. And to all of you I never made up in any other way, I just want to let you know it’s not because I forgot, or didn’t want to do it… it just…was just never meant to be… With sadness in my heart I’m writing the last words of what seems to be my longest post so far, however I am relieved of putting it all down on paper and hopefully someone will read this. Thank you !

How to love…or NOT…

lessonoflife — Sat, 16 May 2009 20:14:45 +0000

A strange thing has happened to me latelly : In the past week I really forgot who I really am, who my real friends are, who I really care about. Tonight I had so many things happening. I’ve been going out with people that really don’t care about me, nor do I ; and I’ve been doing a lot of things that I wouldn’t be doing, and hopefully I won’t again. However, I was about to make a mistake I would feel miserable for in the morning. And I was glad I didn’t do it ; I was glad I found the inner power to withstand the great tentation of flesh, our human weakness.That happened when I accidentally looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself : “ I shouldn’t be doing this ! : I stopped in the last moment and got the hell out of that place. On the way home, I really gave today a thought, and figured out that a lot of choices don’t belong to us :

You don’t choose the day you’re born,

you don’t choose your family,

you don’t choose who you love….

However…you do choose HOW to love, and although I’m not sure of what will happen to me next, at least I can say I did things my way, the right way. So ends today, so starts tommorow, will there be pain, will there be pleasure, or will there be Love ? Only time will tell…

THE DOOR has been opened – Part 1

lessonoflife — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 15:56:22 +0000

I don’t have time to be formal with you guys, because I just woke up and I’m afraid I’m gonna forget my ideea. There are several moments in life when you discover things by yourself, most of the time unintentionally. Well, for me, one of those moments if now. They say dreams are formed in your brain in only a fraction of a second, though it seems they actually took longer. Well, I’m about to contest that right now. Here is what happened : I got home very tired from highschool and fell asleep on my sofa with the volume on the TV set very high. I had a very strange dream, which seemed as if someone else was dreaming in for me. As I awoke up and checked the screen of my TV, the revelation struck me : the story presented at the news was in fact the ending of my dream. Then I realised that I was making out the dream just as the story was told at the news channel. The story wasn’t 100% correct, but close enough to confirm my suspicion. Also, the dream had formed pretty smooth and continuously not to leave the impression that the dream was consisting of just smaller ones. Therefore, I am fully convinced of my theory : Dreaming take much longer than just a second to do.

Metallica Covers

lessonoflife — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 12:02:48 +0000

Hello everyone ! Currently I am practicing mostly Metallica songs. I am such a big fan ! I hope to upload a cover very soon, but first I need to get my hands on a decent camera. My favourite songs from them are mostly their older ones, like Master of Puppets, Fade to Black, For Whom the Bell Tolls, etc. If there is any song of Metallica you would like me to cover leave a comment

Rock on, good people ! \m/